Posted 2005-November-01, 10:53
Jilly, as someone who has enjoyed having you as a player, a TD, and a co-TD - and as someone who for a while now has been concerned about what's happenning to the free tourneys (see my postings ad nauseum), let me just suggest that there's still a place for you. I say this because I've felt the same thing you have.
Take a break. Come back and do a tourney. Take another break.
I will say this: hosting a free TD is a very thankless task. I typically have 50-200 people in my tourney. The ratio if sheer rudeness to simple "thank yous" is roughly 4 to 1. Some of this is explainable by my incompetent direction, granted. Still, you do end up asking yourself over and over: "Exactly why am I doing this again?"
The only solution I have found is to take a break. Sometimes I get keen and run 4 tourneys back to back. Sometimes three weeks go by and I pretend I have a life and don't run a single one.
You're a concientious, good-hearted person, so you tend to feel that you should run tourneys. You don't OWE anyone a tourney.
Any free TD who relies on feedback will eventually quit. Host tourneys because you think it's the right thing to do. Host one, then take a break.
As for the pay tourneys, I think someone somewhere once said the love of money was the root of all evil. Perhaps they should write that down somewhere. Money changes people's motivations and behaviour, unfortunately. Even a tiny bit of money does for tiny people, it seems. I still don't know what the answer is. I want BBO to succeed financially as well as in other ways. I believe very profoundly in the consept that the system should be free to those who don't wish to pay. And my self-proclaimed clever idea of the R6 "Dime a Dozen" Series (a pay tourney that charges 10 cents for 12 boards) apparently creates more work for already overloaded uday and others. So I've still got my thinking cap on.
In the meantime, if you see me online, make sure you say "hi". Losing you as a TD is one of those "canary in the coal mine" moments for me, it raises concerns on a number of levels.